I was thinking about Bryston last night and how amazing his view in Heaven must be. I've been re-reading the book 'Someday' by Karen Kingsbury. It's the final book in the series. One of the character's Ashley had a stillborn daughter, Sarah with anencephaly. This is such a great series! The book mentioned of few of the aspects of loosing an infant along with how the character dealt with her grief and faith. One of the lines of the book that I think will stick with me most is how Ashley realized that Sarah belonged to God and that she always had and always will. What an amazing way to think about it! I like that Bryston "Belongs" to God. It just eases any fears or doubts that I've had about how he is doing without his mama. God is in control and he knows the plans that he has for each of us, including our precious babies, and those plans are not to harm us! Now I just really need to work on being still and knowing that God is in control. That God will be exalted among the nations & we will one day know the purpose of our suffering. Boy, I can hardly wait for that day! Can you just imagine?
And then I started to wonder, do you think our babies are still babies in Heaven or adults? I wish I knew. I guess I like the thought of Bryston still being a baby. I like the idea that when I get to Heaven one day that I will be able to hold my precious son and feel the weight of his live body squirming against mine. Is this something any of you have wondered about? If so, what do you prefer? If it came right down to it, I guess it doesn't really matter, I will be just so happy to be reunited with Bryston that I doubt I'll really be disappointed but I guess it just helps me cope a little better down here, thinking that one day I'll get to hold him again. I don't really recall off hand any scriptures about this, do any of you know if there are scriptures that might have answers about this? I'd be interested to read up on those. I just remember something I was told years ago about how we are all made young again in Heaven, but I don't know how biblically accurate this is?
Wishful thinking of someday may be all the answers I ever I get on this side of Heaven but at least I have the peace of knowing that I WILL have a someday. It makes me really sad to know that there are so many people out there that's not true for. That they will never get their someday when judgement day comes. So today I pray;
I know that the plans you have for all of us, and I know that you do all things in your own time. I ask today that you bless anyone reading this with the assurance of you love. I ask that anyone reading this will open their heart to you Lord and accept you with all of their being. I know that you will guide those here who need to read this and ready to accept you into their lives Lord and I ask that you watch over every mommy here today who's heart a little piece of it in Heaven with you. In Jesus name, Amen.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
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