Friday, May 14, 2010

Seriously???

Ugh, Seriously is everyone pregnant now or what? Sorry, I'm having a moment here. Everywhere I look and every site I visit it seems there is 2 to 3 more pregnancy announcements a week. Why is the universe torturing me?! RRRR! I shouldn't be so jealous, I mean we're not even trying at this point. We agreed to wait until I'm off of the Chantex to start trying, but that's not stopping all of these jealous feeling rising up in me. I guess I just want what I don't have. I want my babies. I want to be a mommy and not just an angel mommy.

The other day someone made a comment about a woman trying to conceive who is 29 and the person said, "Well she better hurry up she's almost 30. Its gets harder in your 30's." Oh God, if that's true... I'm 27 getting ready to turn 28 in June. Lets say I get pregnant this summer, I'd be 29 or close to by the time I'd deliver, and what if I would like a second rainbow baby too? I'm going to be facing even more trails then than now? Great. Just Great....




Okay, thanks for letting me vent for a minute. I just had to get it out. I'm good now, well kinda....





22 comments:

He & Me + 3 said...

((Hugs)) you are allowed to vent and feel that way. It is hard not too.

JenJen said...

Oh geez, ignore the person who said anything about it being harder in your thirties...woman have babies all the time in their 30's! I found out I was pregnant with Lily ON my 30th bday and found out I was pregnant with Coop a month after my 31st...You're fine!

You're time will come for your pregnancy annoncement and we'll all celebrate with you!

Yay for the trying to quit smoking!

Brandi said...

Totally fine to vent... and seriously, don't listen to the person who said that. I didn't have my first until I was 28, 33 when I had my 2nd, 37 when I had my 3rd, and I'm 38 now. You have plenty of time.

Very important to quit smoking, tho... especially if you're having children in your 30's, so pat yourself on the back for that!

Hang in there girl. :)

Mary said...

As a labor and delivery nurse, I can tell you MOST people are pregnant in their thirties! Take a deep breathe. Pregnancy seems to come easier to those who are relaxed! =0) Praying you will be able to have a beautiful rainbow baby soon...

Mattie said...

I know what you mean! Preggos are everywhere! Hopefully, someday soon, we will be one of them though! Hugs!

Tina said...

You're right...you just want what is missing from your life. It is ok to have those feelings. And as for the "too old" comment you heard...All but my first pregnancy occured for me after I was 27, I will be 36 this month, so you have PLENTY of time. Try not to let those types of comments get to you. xx

Meggles said...

Don't listen to that person. Lots of women get pregnant in their 30s. It's just after 30 your risks of birth defects increase slightly. After 35 the risk goes up more. You have plenty of time. I'm 28 and I don't even really know if I want to have kids. I decided that I'll wait until I'm 32 to really focus on it.

Jill said...

So sorry that person said that to you! Wishing for you to get your second rainbow. (((HUGS)))

MB and Frank said...

first off, congrats on quitting smoking... it's hard!

second, i'm 31! i guess that's old?!? It's NOT old! :)

Lisette said...

Don't listen to that person, they are crazy! Don't feel bad about what you feel. I totally understand and I have noticed more pregros with Rainbows. I have happy for them, don't get me wrong but I know what you mean about feeling jealous. We are human, hang in their. I will pray for you more than ever. Take care, ((HUGS))

Andrea said...

Jennifer,

Sometimes the sky just rains pregnancy announcements...it stings and yes the jealousy follows, but I believe we WILL have our day :) Chin up sweet friend.

As for your age, you're a baby in terms of age in comparison to me :) I'm 37 and nearing 38, but I have to believe an earthly baby is still in my future, as I refuse to give in. Hang in there, its a tough gig sometimes.

Much Love,
Andrea

With Out My Punkin said...

(((((HUGS)))))) I'm sorry, I wish that we could have our babies here. Congrats on quitting smoking. As for that persons comment just ignore them!

Jess said...

I'm sorry, Jen, I know it must be so hard. I'm praying that you will get pregnant soon after you start to try again, and in the meantime, that you will be able to feel peace. And please don't feel like you are getting too old! You're at the age where everyone has babies, and most of us into our 30s. Sending you a big hug!

Just Breathe said...

I'm sorry, I am sure that it is very easy to become jealous. ((HUGS))
How are you liking Chantex. I used it 18 months ago and I thought it was perfect. Congratulations.

Keeping you in my prayers.

wife.mom.nurse said...

Seeing other pregnant women and babies is just so painful following loss. They seem to be everywhere when you are suffering.

Praying for you...

~Julie

DeniFay said...

It has been raining pregnancy announcements, and I've felt the sting too! You are allowed to vent, allowed to hurt, and totally still want to have a baby, and miss your babies!

You are still young, but I know those stats don't help anything. Having just turned 31, I get nervous myself. But I know too many people who are older than all of these silly stats having healthy babies everyday! Don't let that part worry you.

Sending you tons of love in return for all of the love that you share!!!

Marie W said...

I said the same thing! I counted 15 so far. Thinking of you and sending you good thoughts.

Karen said...

Sending you love. Glad you've shared. If it makes you feel any better, I had my first at 30 (was in labour my entire 30th birthday in fact and he was born in the wee hours of the next day). xo

Holly said...

I know many of us know those same feelings. My own eyes have been filled with envy.

Misty said...

I run from women who are pregnant, or even trying to get pregnant. I seem to have a knack for having a new born die, then miscarrying once, and then miscarrying a 2nd time (just a week ago). It makes no sense to me, why some receive, and some don't. I'm beginning to wonder if I ever will.........

Inanna said...

I'm with you... always a bridesmaid, never a bride, so to speak... and I turned 40 this year... jeez, I'm a senior citizen in the childbearing world... ;)

Girl in the dark said...

I found your blog on accident, but I had to comment to say I completely agree with this. I am very close to your age (I also turn 28 in June). It's especially difficult to be surrounded by oblivious pregnant women. I tend to steer clear of most pregnant women these days. It's not a permanent solution, but it works for now.