I just realized that tomorrow is one year to the day that we conceived Bryston. Geeze, I cant believe it's been that long already. I don't know where the time has gone. Its just disappeared like it never even happened. It will also be the one month mark since we lost our sweet peanut. The time may have disappeared like it never happened but the evidence is all around me. Its still hard to believe sometimes. That this is really where my life has gone. I'm a mother or two precious angels, their existences are etched on my heart. I am still caught off guard sometimes with sorrow but I am finding that everyday is a new day. I'm able to get out of bed in the mornings now and my first thought is no longer about my babies, but they are a close second. I never know how my emotions will unfold or what will bother me or not bother me. I still have trouble looking people in the eyes when they ask if I have any children because I don't want them to see my tears. But then other days I am able to discuss them without breaking down. I still have to remind myself that I AM a mom. That I deserve that title. Even if my children aren't here on this earth, I still breathed life into them in my womb. Some days thats harder to believe than others.
I recieved a new addition to Bryston's name gallery the other day from Lisa, Jasper's sweet mommy. She did a great job, I love them! Thank you Lisa!
You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. (Psalm 32:7-8)
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Posted by The Blue Sparrow at 8:35 PM