As I was saying on my last post, today Bryston would have been 1 month old today if he had survived. I was asking for prayers to get me through the day today not only because of that, but because I had an OB appointment today And because I havent yet recieved our NILMDTS photos. I just wanted to post how the day went today.
It was hard and sad but I made it. My mom decided to go with me to my appointment which helped keep me distracted. We walked into the office and it was clear all the prayers were heard. The waiting room was empty. In fact I didnt see even one other patient the entire time I was there today. I am released from his care and dont need to see him again untill next year, unless I want to. For any of you who live in this area I really reccomend Dr. Wyatt as an OB. He was so wonderful and kind heartheated the entire pregnancy. He did let me in on the fact that I was the first of his patients in all of his 30 years to loose a baby to placental abruption. (It was a pretty serious case, obviously.)There were several things that could have caused the abruption but we'll save that for a different post. He said he thinks of me daily. Now who could ask for a better doctor than that? I asked the questions that I needed to ask and he answered each one, no matter how irrational the question and no matter how many times he had already answered it. The visit wasnt lacking of any tears mind you, but I handeled it better than my last appointment. My appointment was at 1 'o clock today so at 1:01pm (The minute of his arrival into this world) I was in the exact same presense as the man that delivered my handsome son one month ago on the dot. It was kinda cool.
After my appointment I stayed busy and distracted myself. I shopped at Walmart(quickly), did laundry and a little housecleaning, and began reading the book, Empty Arms. I again wept several times today but I had a calm peaceful feeling laid over me like a blanket as well. I felt all of your prayers today. Thank you. This is probably the first time in a month since I have been able to feel God's peace and strength.
No we didnt recieve the pictures today so please keep praying on that for me if you wouldnt mind. Its one of the only things Ive been able to muster up any enthusiasim for. I hope they turned out good. They said about 4 weeks, so I guess Im worrying prematurely about them being lost. I just need to see him so badly! I thought about emailing the photographer but I dont want to bother her since it has only been 4 weeks today. Maybe next week I will if they're not here by then.
Thank you all so much for the prayers today! I felt a peace that I havent felt in a long time. My prayer for all of you today is that you would feel that same peace that I recieved today no matter whats going on in your lives. God bless!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Posted by The Blue Sparrow at 6:36 PM