Ugh...I suffered from foot in mouth disease yesterday and today and now I feel like a total jerk! I hate it when I do these things! I get so wrapped up in my own grief sometimes that I forget that the world does not stop producing other kinds of problems for people outside of the infant/pregnancy loss bubble. I find myself all the time watching a program, or reading a book or even in a conversation that has nothing to do with loss and somehow my mind will weave it so it'll fit into the topic of baby loss. I have got to stop being so centered on this, I don't want this to define me but it seems that's exactly what I've let happen....
Am I alone in this or does your world seem to revolve around your loss too? Gosh, I hope I'm not the only one, LOL! The past year has been such a tough one I guess it's changed who I am but I don't want it to change how I care for and listen to people which seems of late to be the case....SIGH......
I'll be working on this so if we happen to know each other in real life and you catch me doing this please, give me a swift kick in the pants okay? I think I'll probably need a reminder a time or two before I can completely kick the habit ;)
And as often is the case, God brought this verse to my attention today, hmmmm...yup feeling convicted, gotta say, not one of my favorite emotions.....
And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.”
And then I saw this one;
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
And now I feel better.....Im far from perfect but you know what? That's okay, I can admit when I falter and even look like fool sometimes. God understands and can handle my foolish days, and thank goodness for that too! Some days He must just roll his eyes and say, "That ole Jen is at it again, watch out!"
Monday, October 18, 2010
Posted by The Blue Sparrow at 11:50 PM