Memorial Weekend

Wow! I cannot believe it's been over a week since I've logged onto Blogger, this is the longest I've gone since last summer. Last week was super busy at work. I worked alot of extra hours trying to play catch up before the long weekend. We went to several barbeque's and spent time with friends and family. Ty and I slept in all weekend, which was soo nice!

Yesterday we took flowers to Bryston's site to honor Memorial day. I know, I know, its about the Vets but for me Memorial day is also about honoring all of the dead. I went to several stores looking for just the right floral arrangement but was having a hard time finding the right one. I didn't want to put up the fake floral arrangements I really wanted live ones so I found a really pretty potted arrangement at Menard's with red, white and blue flowers and a cute little flag sticking out of it. When we got to the cemetery I was in awe of how beautiful it all looked. All of the flowers, balloons, flags, toys and pinwheels were stunning with the sunlight bouncing off of them. But it was also sad. Sad because there are so many baby graves. Bryston's cemetery has sections for infants. He is buried in whats called BabyLand 2. This is the first time also that I saw other grieving parents visiting their babies. Its always empty when I visit. I like that because it gives me privacy to grieve, but it made me sad to see them.

Another thing I did this weekend is pull out my summer clothes, Yay! But also Nae! I love summertime, its my favorite time of year along with Christmas, but now summer means something different to me. It means the season that I lost Bryston. As I was pulling out my clothes I couldn't help but remember that I wore alot of these last summer while I had him still with me. I had flashbacks of things I did when I wore them and OB appointments that I wore some too. I didn't anticipate this being something that would bother me. I mean there just clothes, but they're also so much more than that. They're a piece of my time spent with Bryston while he was still safe. Putting them on each day is bittersweet. (I should clarify here, I wore prepregnancy and still do where alot of empire waisted tops, I love them. So they are my regular clothes. Im not running around in last years maternity gear or anything LOL!) Oh well, chalk it up to another one of those unexpected things the grieving process throws at ya.

I need to catch up on all of my blog reading, Sorry I've been neglectful! I hope everyone had a great Memorial weekend!!!

Also today is a very special day for one of you out there. I want to wish Wyatt a Very Happy 1st Heavenly Birthday! Sending love and prayers to the Finchum family and wishing them a very peaceful and joyous day as they remember their sweet boy.