Bryston's Tree

I haven't been in the holiday spirit, that's no secret, but I did take your advice and decided to put up at least a small tree for Bryston. I didn't and probably wont put up our big tree this year because it just feels like itd be forced. But I do think that Bryston needs to be included in our holiday. I got home the other night from work and Ty had bought a gift for me. It was on the dining room table. I opened it and found the cutest sparrow ornament. So I knew after opening it that I wanted to put on up. Also on the tree I put two ornaments with the letter B on them, and the very first ornament that I bought in August in Alabama while visiting my sister. It is a blue baby ornament with balloons and on the balloons says 2009. All in all I am glad that I put up a tree just for Bryston. I like looking at the lights at night and its somehow peaceful.








The little angle figurine in this photo is holding a little angel baby. We received it in the mail the other day. It came in a box with a little poem attached that read;
When God Calls Little Children
When God calls little children to dwell with him above
We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world seem so wonderful and mild
Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold
So he picks a little rosebud before it can grow old
God knows how much we need them so he takes but a few
To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view
Believing this is difficult, still, somehow we must try
The saddest word mankind knows will always be goodbye
So when a little child departs we how are left behind
Must realize God loves his children...Angels are hard to find.

The figurine had no return address on it so I have no one to say thank you too, but still whoever you are, thank you, its beautiful and we love it so much we wanted it by his tree.


Also this week I decorated his site. Its not much since there is no headstone but I wanted something there that was festive. I took down his fall decorations, which I'm not sure Ive shared so I will post that picture as well, but I it was hard seeing all the other little graves there decorated. It made me sad to see just how many there are. My heart aches for these families and I wonder how they are navigating through the season with their grief.







Another thing that I got in the mail the other day was from our NILMDTS photographer. It came out of nowhere and I am so grateful that she thought of us! Here is her addition to Bryston's name gallery.


You know, even through it all I still feel so blessed. It's hard sometimes, yes, to see it that way, but deep down I know in my heart that I am. I wish that I could see that everyday. See that through the fog of my grief. I'm trying and I guess that's something.

Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail). Psalm 55:22 (AMP)